God has been teaching me a lot lately. Let me start with LOVE. I’ve been seeing 1 Corinthians 13, a lot lately, which talks about all the things that love should be. It’s a very familiar passage to all of us, I’m sure. At the same time thought I have been wondering who God is. This is because I learnt that the only way to stay still in the midst of our circumstances is by knowing who God is (Psalm 46:10). This was when I realized, that 1 Corinthians 13 is actually talking about WHO GOD IS. God is love. we all know that. It says:
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.– 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
These are all qualities of God. I’ve been looking everywhere to figure out who God is when its been staring at me in the face this entire time, I just had to keep praying, keep ploughing and keep my eyes, ears and heart open.
The next thing was trust. My whole journal this year, up until now is talking about trusting in God because I know that this is what I have to work on this year. Trusting in God. But I’ve been really bad at this, and I always have been. I then started to read Jeremiah 15 and 17. God really spoke to me through those chapters.
In Jeremiah 15, Jeremiah keeps asking God why he has to suffer. He starts questioning God’s goodness and faithfulness in his life. This doesn’t please God. I had no idea. I mean, imagine being in a relationship and never knowing whether you trust the person or not. Or continuously asking them if they loved you. The relationship just wouldn’t work. Why should it be any different in our relationship with God. I realized that this was the mistake that I had been making and because of that, have missed out on hearing God’s voice in my life. I let the anxiety make me doubt who I know God to be, and what He means to me. When somethings hits me, I loose my trust in everything. I become a storm to be reckoned with. This I have realized, isn’t the way.
Therefore this is what the LORD says: “If you repent, I will restore you that you may serve me; if you utter worthy, not worthless, words, you will be my spokesman.– Jeremiah 15:19
But because God is merciful and full of grace, He sticks around even when I make those mistakes and helps me to learn from them. If I stop doubting and start trusting, then everything that God has promised will still come to pass. Just like He says to Jeremiah. God doesn’t throw thunder or lighting at us, when we do the wrong things. He is gracious to crouch down with us, and lift us back up. He places a simple choice in front of Jeremiah. Doubt or trust. This is up to us too. In Jeremiah 17, God also tells us the difference between these two choices. Doubters will be like shrubs in the desert, that do still grow but only up to a certain height. After that they stop, and and carry on in a dry and parched desert, in the middle of nowhere. Don’t be the shrub! On the other hand people who trust in God, are like those describe in Psalm 1. Like trees that are flourishing by the river side. The heat and pressure of life can’t touch them and when the drought comes they will stand firm because they are deeply rooted in God.They can trust Him in any situation. This was a really important lesson for me. Be the tree!
Then I started to think, well, how can I trust in God? Where do I even begin? Psalm 37, solved this for me:
- Do not worry about how other’s are doing, focus on yourself
- Keep doing good, don’t be discouraged
- Take delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart, just leave it to Him
- Commit everything you do to Him, because He can see further than you
- Stop being angry, this doesn’t solve anything
- Be still and wait patiently for Him, because He will make it come to pass.
These are all the things I can only do, if I trust in God., If i can work on each of these individual things, I know that I can be well on my way to a more secure and fulfilling relationship with my Savior. These are all the things I must learn this year if I want to grow in Him. If i want to be a better person, if I want to live a better life. If I want my life to glorify God, this is what I must do. I trust that God will help me and I trust that He will be with me. I TRUST GOD.
What about you?